I returned to Ar a few nights after I ran into the man camped in the woods. After he told me he knew of my past and gave me the option to submit or run I bailed in a heart beat. The man was large and stern .. if I had submitted... he would of truly mastered me.. and at the time I was very affraid he might. I am so unsure of my freedom as of late. It is so hard to maintain the right behaviors when you know the freedoms of bondage.. its very strange. Sometimes I think if I just tossed myself at the feet of one of my peers, they just may accept my submission and I would be able to be free... but if I was denied I could be killed and I kind of like it here sooo... I need to go take care of some buiness for a client.. so I will write again another time....